Sorry I went quiet there for a few weeks. June was…perhaps not my best month. For the most part, I’ve been absolutely exhausted the entire month. Between my parents being down to visit and my best friend and her husband coming up, I’ve been around people all month which reminded me that I have gotten used to my own space prior to this point.
Not perfectly used to it yet. I still tend to refer to both the apartment and my car as belonging to my parents rather than being Mine. I still hadn’t moved into the other bedroom (which is slightly larger and has the larger bed with the much newer mattress.
You see, I’m a creature of habit and June just screwed up my habits so hard. It’s been a week since my parents have headed out again and I’m still not back to my habits.
Now, part of that is certainly because I’m trying to make new habits: I’ve finally moved into the other bedroom and am in the process of turning what was my bedroom into an office/library. But that’s slow going. It’s taking time and money and I have to try and spread the cost out or I’ll screw myself over.
Other things are out of my control. I mentioned in the last post that I was going to a D&D night on Monday. I’m trying to make that a habit too but July 1st (Canada Day) fell on a Monday this year so that night wasn’t a D&D night. Which was fine because I spent it driving my parents into the big city so they could catch their international flight. I got home at 2 in the morning but, hey, at least I caught a few glimpses of fireworks as we drove up.
I like to think I’ll be able to restart my habits soon. Get better at actually posting these blogs on Monday (and have them be about something other than my life at the moment) but I’m honestly not sure if I’m going to be able to form habits any time soon.
What I mean is that work is getting heavy. I’m absolutely wiped when I get home which was why I was trying to get up before work and get some of my own projects completed then. But I’m still tired when I wake up because I can’t sleep in the heat. As of yesterday, I also spent several hours in Emerge to make sure I hadn’t rebroken my left wrist (which I heard crack pretty badly carrying a box at work). From the x-rays it doesn’t look like I’ve done any lasting damage but for right now it still hurts and I’m going to be overly conscious about how I move at work and at home for days.
My best bet is likely to hold out until September. Things are going to change then: I’m starting a new program at a new university. I’ll have to develop new habits anyways and dust off some old ones too. It’ll be an adjustment period that I can, hopefully, use to my advantage.
That does mean that things aren’t always going to be perfectly settled for the blog. I’ll do my best to get a Monday blog up consistently but if I have to choose between my mental/physical/social health and the blog then my health is going to win. This whole radio silence and wrist thing has really slapped me upside the head with my need to get my priorities straight.